The best decision you can make is to commit your life to Jesus Christ and follow Him as a disciple. You need to understand that you are a sinner in need of salvation for that to happen.

Your sin comes with a penalty of eternity in hell. The only way to be saved from that is to recognize you need a savior. Jesus came to earth to die on the cross so that your sins can be forgiven and give you eternal life in heaven.

When you put your faith in Jesus, God comes into your life, clears away all sins, and gives you new life. Part of that includes being filled with the Holy Spirit and the love of Jesus Christ. If you would like to commit to Jesus Christ, start by asking Him to forgive you of your sins and change your life.